Must Read: Ibo Boy Wey Like Yoruba

6 years ago

Must Read: Ibo Boy Wey Like Yoruba

Would he not invite me to his bed? If he would not, then I have to do something. I thought about faking a scare like saying I could not sleep alone. I also thought about faking a nightmare to get him into my bed, but they all seemed childish.
I have to do something, that I was sure of.

‘I would be across the room if you need me, see you lerra today.’ He said pulling me into a hug. He hugged me, kissed my cheeks and neck and turned back to walk away. I watched him walk to his door, waiting for the right moment to strike. When he touched the knob to open the door, I called out softly.

‘Godwin. Wait.’ He halted, looked back at me with a straight smile on his face. My confidence left me a bit. He said,

‘Yes sweets.’ I opened my mouth and nothing came out. I licked my dry lips and swallowed my saliva and still, no sound will come from my dry mouth. He came back to my side, held my hands and looked me straight in the eyes and said.

‘Sit down joke.’ I did though I would prefer to go into the bedroom.

‘My dear, when my friend met your friend, they wanted to have a fling and they thought I should have one with you too. But getting to know your friend, I’ve noticed that beneath her naughtiness and ruggedness, she is a nice person who wants to be loved but scared is of loosing her heart to the wrong person. You see, I studied Psychology as my first degree, and I can read people. Now to you.’ He said. He held my second hand, smiled at me and continued.

‘You my dear, you are a serious lover. One look at you and I knew you were hurting. Look, there’s nothing I want more than to be between your legs but I can’t offer you what you want. Right now you may just want the S£x, but later, you will want the heart and I can’t give it.’ He said.

I removed my hands from his hands and dropped my elbows on my thighs. I linked my hands together, interlocking my fingers and dropped my head into it. Hot tears of embarrassment brushed my eyelids but I was determined not to cry. I blinked them away. He rested his hands lightly on my shoulders, I shifted away from him a bit, he removed his hands.

‘Joke, please don’t do this. I hate what I’m doing myself. If only you know how much I want to be buried in you but I can’t because it just wouldn’t be right. Forget the fact that I don’t want to hurt you, the fact remains you are still in love with your boyfriend.’ I straighten up slowly and looked into his eyes.
What gave him the idea that I still love or ever loved Niyi. It was as if he read through my heart.

‘My dear, I know you are still in love with him. I had you in my arms for over fifteen minutes, you were willing to kiss me, have S£x with me but you weren’t willing to let go.

I didn’t touch your br3ast or butt because you have this protective aura about you. You are just looking for a bounce back S£x and physical contact to convince yourself that you are over him and to assure yourself that you are still desirable but it won’t help you. You will hate yourself and hate me after the S£x. Am I making sense?’ He asked. I wanted to say no but I knew in my heart that he was somehow right.

‘What makes you think I loved or I’m still in love with my ex?’ I asked. He smiled before answering me.

‘Ok, I’m going to ask you some questions, please give me honest answers ooo.’ He employed.

‘Ok.’ I said.

‘How many times do you think of him in a day?’ He asked me gently.

‘Well, when we first parted, I used to think of him all day, but now, once or twice in a day,’ I replied shrugging.

‘When you hear his name being called or when you think about him, how do you feel?’ He asked.

‘Hmmmm, I feel sad, pained and deprived,’ I replied.

‘Are you saying it still hurts you when you are being reminded of him?’ He questioned.

‘Yes,’ I answered.

‘Now close your eyes,’ I did, ‘and imagine your ex proposing to another girl right now.’ He said and my eyes flew apart, my lips were shaking, slightly and my heart was racing and hurting.

‘Tell me Joke, how does that make you feel?’ He asked softly.

‘Sad, very sad.’ I whispered staring into space.

‘I don’t think you need me to tell you that you still have strong feelings for your ex.’ He said

‘Let me tell you as it is. Sometimes people we love do some terrible things to us, and vise-visa but that doesn’t mean they don’t love us or we don’t love them. It’s just human nature to hurt each other. If it still hurts then you still care. Try and make up with him Joke.

This heartbreak is helping no one as I’m sure he would be missing you somewhere now.’ He educated me but how was I supposed to tell him I was at fault? How could I ever reveal to him that I was the cheater? Would Niyi actually forgive me? I really didn’t think so.

‘Hmhmhmhm, what if I was the one at fault? What if I was the one that cheated, will he forgive me? Would you forgive me if you were the one?’ I asked Godwin hoping he wouldn’t read between the lines. If he read between the lines, he didn’t give himself away.

‘Well, you know males are violently jealous, it may take time for him to forgive you, but if he truly loves you and he hasn’t found another love, he would. My suggestion to you is to give it a try. You see, in relationships, when there’s a problem, one party leaves hastily and regrets it lerra. Pride, ego, fear and shame stops us from apologizing and mending things. So my dear Joke, reach out to your love once more, have courage.’ He said smiling. I find his words of encouragement soul pleasing. I smiled up at him and said.

‘Thanks Godwin. I will like to be alone and think things over.’ I said rising up and walking to my room, as I was about to enter my room he said,

‘Remember Joke, don’t give up and have faith.’