Undecided - S01 E11

3 years ago

Undecided - S01 E11

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 11

Dibz's POV

I knew I messed up big time when I denied that I cared about Fola but I didn’t know she’d take it to heart like that. I’d tried to talk to her ever since but she’s been avoiding me since then and I know we aren’t really friends yet but there’s this connection between us and I know she feels it too and now we might never get to see where it would have led because I had to mess up everything again. The one time I managed to get a hold of her,she didn’t even give me the time of the day and she’d told me not worry that we weren’t even friends and so she wasn’t hurt by what I had said. Hearing her say that was a big blow because even though I knew we weren’t friends, it still hurt to hear her say it to my face and reality dawned on me, I mean what was I even thinking,that she’d somehow fall in love with me despite the flock of really handsome guys constantly chasing her?Hell no!!!

The school was having its PTA fund raiser today and everywhere was flocked with probably all the richest men in the country. Cars with prices that could buy standard houses filled everywhere and about ten helicopters were in the pitch.. showoffs.

I already knew none of my parents would make it as they were busy to attend this rather less important function and I was glad about it ,I didn’t have the time to start answering questions about school now.
All these functions were just the same,the women fake smiling and laughing amongst themselves secretly checking out the other’s jewellery and designer outfits,accessing if they were the latest and then the men loudly talking about the stock market and mergers and we the children acting all poise and posh gossiping about how hilarious how parents looked.

Well,my parents weren’t around so I had the liberty to drink as much as I wanted and I didn’t have to wear a tux too. Halfway through the function and I was already fed up so I decided to take a stroll and clear my head abit,I sat on a bench in the garden and just took in the peace of nature and just relaxed.

My moment of peace was cut short when I heard faint sobs coming from somewhere in the garden and I smiled thinking the champagne had gotten to my head but I heard it again and decided to get up and leave as I didn’t want to intrude, but then I might as see what’s wrong and that’s when I saw Fola sitting on the floor leaning against a tree sobbing,she lifted her head and saw me ,then her eyes narrowed at me,”What are you doing here?”,she barked.

“Get out,leave me alone”!!!,she spat out. Instinctively, I wanted to leave as I felt she had to right to speak to me like that but I found myself doing the exact opposite. I quietly sat down beside her and closed my eyes , relaxing my head on the tree.

“Are you deaf or what ? I said leave me alone,i want to be left alone!!!!”

“Ssshhhhh”,I whispered with my eyes still closed.

“You’re free to leave if you want,last time I checked you didn’t own this garden neither did you create this tree so I’m staying here and you can either deal with it or you don’t”,I finished quietly.

She turned to face me with her mascara tear stained face and I know this might sound sick but she looked pretty beautiful like that and I didn’t know when my hands shot up to gently wipe a tear off.

I felt really good touching my skin and I think she felt the same way too as I heard she gasp a little at the contact and she had this very faint expression of disappointment when I dropped my hand.

A very long time had passed and neither of us had said anything, we just allowed the loud silence do the talking as we just looked on..I had my eyes closed tho.

“He promised me he’d come today”,she whispered.

“I was so excited only for him to call this afternoon to cancel that something had come up in the company and he wouldn’t be able to make it again”.

At the mention of ‘he’ ,I’d already started feeling bad , so it’s a guy that’s making her feel this way.

“Who?”,I found myself asking,knowing I didn’t really want to know the answer but still I felt I had to ask.

“My Dad,he always does this…he always comes up with excuses each time we’re supposed to hang out”,she said sobbing.

Feeling relief that it wasn’t another guy but her dad, I felt at ease and abit sad for her,i know the feeling of being neglected.

“Wow wish we could trade fathers right now”,I said with a smile.

“What…why would you say that?’,she asked shocked.
Great,now she’s feeling another thing other than sadness, that’s an improvement.

“Because my dad is so overbearing always up in my business it’s like he’s suffocating me so maybe if he was abit like your dad then maybe I’d get my freedom.Its almost like he following me to live my life which is not funny”,I said.

“Really? that’s abit much but at least he cared enough to always want to be around you”,she said with no trace of a sob in her voice. Progress,now I just have to say something to try and make her smile.

” yeah I know but maybe he could back off abit and just trust me to do what’s best for me…he could use the time to work out,its almost like he’s pregnant with twins with way he’s tummy’s protruding”,I said the last part quietly.The trick seemed to work as she laughed and playfully punched my shoulder.

“Cmon he’s not that bad he’s still fit but sometimes i wonder how his tailor makes his clothes”,she said now smiling.
“Oh we’re making jokes on my dad yh?,I asked teasingly.

“You started it”, she laughed.
“I’m sorry Fola”,I said looking straight at her. A look of confusion settled on her face.
“For?”, she asked still lost on what I was apologizing for.
“The other day when you heard me with Jeff…the truth is I do care about you even though we aren’t friends yet but I just do and I’m sorry.”

“You don’t have to apologize,you dont owe me any obligation to care about me so…..”,she couldn’t finish before I cut her off.

“That’s the thing Fola,i want to care about you and I don’t pretend like i don’t anymore.For the first time in my life I care about someone else other than myself and family and I don’t wanna be ashamed of it anymore….and I know you do too”,I said feeling free that I finally let it off my chest.

“I’ve seen the way you stare at me in class ,even when you think I’m not looking and I know I’m abit hot so I don’t blame you but you’re too obvious”,I said again with a smile this time,trying to lighten the mood.
“Oh you cocky idiot”,she said smiling. “You talk like you don’t check me out too,you even drool sometimes”.

“But you really hurt me when you said that, I felt so ashamed of myself like i was dirty”,she said sadly.

I held her hands and tilted her face up to meet mine.
“I’m sorry Fola, I really am”,I said softly,my thumb slightly grazing her soft pink lips.

She smiled and bit her bottom lips coyly as she bent her head and boy I almost kissed her there but I just let go of her and turned away.”Shit”,I muttered to myself.

“What’s wrong..did I do something wrong?”,she asked with a hint of worry in her tone.
“No no just that with the way you’re biting your lips I wouldn’t be held responsible for kissing would senseless”,I told her and she just smiled.

“What if I don’t want you to be responsible now”, she said softly.
“No Fola… I’d like for us to take things slow and get to know each other first”,I told her.

“Me too”,she replied all smiles and we spent the whole night getting to know each other and it was pretty fun.